anemone ~to the person whom I love~ hidoko Matsumoto Sun March 25, 2001  Once again it's this kind of night, even though the day and time are both not the same.It's in the same street that we met, it's in the same street that we parted.Already........it's been close to one year. Is it impossible for you to have remembered me?This year, I have recieved many wishes, and every single one is from each of their hearts; every single one is what I treasure most. Even though your congratulation is what I wish for most, I don't dare to look forward to it being bestowed unto me; anyway I have lost the mood of waiting for it.I think, creating a wondrous future for myself with realistic methods is the most adequate?My utmost beloved, it's impossible for you to have stayed by my side while listening to my words of love, because both of your hands are not grasping mine. I can't imagine how accepting your gentility is, but I can understand everything that you have accepted.Your every action, every smile is imprinted onto my heart.Before hatred disappears, the wound will never be healed. But, my wounds are not derived from hatred; they come from unfruitful love.Love and hate, how thin is the line that seperates this two? I don't know, because hatred has never left such an impression on my heart. I hate many things, just like how I have let you slip through my fingers akin to the sand.You are the corners of my sky, existing at the edges of the sea. You are my rainbow, lingering in the sky, creating such a beautiful scene that makes me unable to forget-- even though you are remembered, you became a memory so fast.I still remember your smile, aa, anemone...My thoughts, my life, like the melody they form a whirlpool in the air air with you, like the memory they linger in the sky reminiscent to you.I am able to live on because you exist; if one day I can see your smile, no matter whether it's a wish for me or a congratulations for the both of us, I will continue to fight.........Aa.......to forget you, my anemone. hyde lifted his head, gazing at the sleeping angel with hazy eyes.The flawless face was so adorable and attractive...Messy strands of fine hair fell onto pale white, flawless cheeks, almost driving people into adoring insanity. He only hated that it was too late to look at him; why had he never liked him or noticed him......?"sakura, you are my anemone, I can't forget you. And this person, he's with me now... But I know that he is, like you, just a beautiful anemone, because my first anemone caused me to miss the chance of loving him." Long eyelashes carved light shadows onto the cheek, and sighs reluctantly, unlimitedly, lingered, like a hesitantly touching song. "I'm going to be married tomorrow, is this goodbye? ...I don't know..."Lifting those thoughtful gentle brown eyes, a determined line ruled the corner of his lips."...I don't want to let him become a beautiful yet fragile anemone." He smiled while caressing his only beloved's cheeks. "The beginning does not represent goodbye... sakura, if he becomes an anemone, you will never forgive me. It's because you are this kind of person that you have become an anemone.""Un..." Light breaths were exhaled in sleep, as if it was reminder of the air's presence. "hyde, aren't you gunna sleep...?""I'll sleep soon, don't bother about me." The tone was as warm as water. Both of his hands rested against slender shoulders.".....I think the person who's bothered is you?" The brown-haired person smiled; rays of the sun shot into the windows of his heart. "I-- am fine. Just sleep... If you can wake up...""Baka, I'm not bothered.""I think the idiot is you? ...huhu.""Bigmouth!" Held him tightly, with only hopes of the present never passing by........"I love you." Yes... I race towards you, no matter when, because I race towards happiness; realistic happiness. Even if my heart is not happy, it doesn't matter, because... aa, the things that I wanna protect will always be lost.Now, just let me forget everything...Even the second anemone---!Let us create a wonderful future together, with the realistic methods of the modern people. Let us not be submerged in our hearts' feelings anymore...Let us forget the future.Even if I will forever bear the sin of hurting this two anemone... A sin that exceeds eternity.Let us forget about the feelings of the future------!Tomorrow does not belong to us, therefore, the world which anemone exists in only belongs to memory.
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