AIGAN NO TSUKI ~NINGYOU~

Author: Muneko
Translator: hirai

"…..let’s be together…….forever…….just us together…….forever…..na…….?"
Sugizo’s eyes at the moment they looked at him, as he was threatened by Sugizo’s mad love.
That along with the cold sweat that ran along his back, controlled Ryuichi’s mind even now as an unforgettable memory.
"…….Ryu………?"
The light brown eyes reflecting deep shock and despair……gradually lost all colour. But still the slightly trembling fingertips reached out to touch him.
"……..yada………"
He wondered, if he hadn't unthinking knocked his hand away then, if he had promised even just that they would live together, would he have been locked away in this cage coloured with strange small tools.--------
"……iya……Sugi-chan…….su…….gi-chan……..!!"
He desperately tried to escape from the hands that persistently tried to hold him down.
The fallen glass and ice seemed to scream as it hit the ground. As the ashtray rolled scattering dirt and ash around it produced a mad sound that hurt the ears until controlled.
"……….IYAAAAAAAAAAA……….!!"
Under Sugizo’s body as he held him down, somehow managing to pull himself towards the door, the moment before he gripped the handle…….
Ryuichi’s consciousness was completely lost into darkness.
"……….ah……..’
Sugizo’s arms as they grabbed him just before he fell to the floor, and the grains of wood of the floor approaching before his eyes. Those were, all of the last ‘normal’ space he saw.
 

"……….Ryu………."
Softly, Sugizo put his hand in Ryuichi’s.
"……………?!"
 He looked as Ryuichi flinched in front of him and smiled. Not loud laughter……or mocking laughter. A smile so beautiful the person he was looking at had to almost look away ashamed. It tore nails into Ryuichi’s heart with its almost cruel warmth.
"If I……let you out……where would you go?"
The more gentle Sugizo’s eyes were……..
"You can’t……..separate from me can you? Don’t you …….have to be here forever?"
The more Sugizo’s words were filled with love……
Ryuichi’s fear only increasing, he just continued to shake his head like a disobedient child. At that time, one of the unstopping tears dropped, and fell onto Sugizo’s mouth.
The droplet that he licked up with his tongue mysteriously had no taste.
"Let me out……..let me out of here…….let me out"
"Calm down……..ok?
"Please…….."
"I’ll do anything for you? Get you anything…..you won’t need anything….."
"…….ya…….da……….I want to…….go home…."
"……….are you lonely?…….if you are I’ll always be beside you? I won’t leave you by yourself here like before…..na…..?"
"……go home……go……..home….."
No matter how gently he advised him Ryuichi remained with his head bowed and tears overflowing, speaking nothing but words of denial. Since he was taken here, until now always…….
When he faced Ryuichi in the small amount of times when the drugs had worn off, hadn’t there  been times when he’d seen something but a crying face?
"Don’t cry…….."
Although he knew that he was the one that had made him cry, Sugizo could not help but ask him in a sad voice.
 
 

"I won’t let you go…….there’s no way I’ll let you out of here."
"Sugi……chan!!"
"Because Ryu will always…….live here with me……."
"I want to go home…I………I want to sing………here Sugichan won’t let me sing!!"
"Sing then….."
"………?"
"Sing, sing here forever……..just for me……sing forever?"
"No, no! Not like that! It’s not like that Sugichan!!"
No matter how much he begged him, as he bore the strange meaningless ~probably Sugizo interprets it as normality~  yet senseless answers, Ryuichi screamed out hysterically.
He doesn’t understand what I’m saying……..
Ryuichi seriously felt that……he didn’t know what to do.
If he doesn’t understand my words…..if my thoughts can’t reach him…….then this opposition was useless.
"Su……gi-chan…….Sugi-chan let’s go home….."
Even so, as if he could somehow be understood, Ryuichi continued the words mixed with tears.
"Let’s go home together…….back to where everyone else is……….yaa!?"
Sugizo had not missed the fact that in his agitation, Ryuichi had neglected the hand that was holding the ribbon.
Using just the power of his abdominal muscles he sat up in an instant, and Ryuichi’s body was pushed aside. His body released powerfully and falling onto the ground, Ryuichi’s breathing stopped for a moment. But still he raised his upper body painfully, and looked at Sugizo firmly.
Despite being looked at with such criticism and objection, inside Sugizo a felt a sensation not unlike excitement whirl inside him.
The hem of the crumpled disordered kimono exposed parts of his body deep inside as he raised his knees to sit down. The part of Ryuichi’s body that knew the sunlight the least. Probably unconsciously……..exposed in front of him as if shown, it heightened Sugizo’s mad joy.
……..ah……..so pretty…….
Ryuichi’s form as he showed his vivid self usually deeply hidden by the drugs, was distorted with hatred but this just stimulated the feelings of lust inside Sugizo further.
When he’s glaring at me……..if he cries for me…….
Those, the things that stimulated Sugizo’s madness, the disobedient person in front of him would surely know of.
"……why don’t you…..drink the medicine…..Ryu"
His eyes clouded as if ---, Sugizo whispered happily.
"If the drugs wear off, you always make a face like that…….so…….I don’t know what I should do to you."
"………ah………."
The will that had been trying to convince Sugizo, was replaced by a fear of the nature he didn’t know in those eyes. His whole body began to shake so much it seemed he’d bit his tongue if he tried to move his mouth.
Sugizo took a step towards him, and Ryuichi moved back the same distance. He cowered away in fear, he could barely move even that much.
"Are you running away……? Or are you inviting me…….? With that position"
At the teasing question, Ryuichi looked down startled to his clothes.
"…………yada!"
Noticing for the first time at Sugizo’s words his condition, Ryuichi, blushing deep red, rushedly covered his chest and gathered up the silk of the hem, hiding his legs.
"……..!!"
In the instant his consciousness was involved in the kimono, Sugizo had moved right up to his nose.  The unconscious scream he started to let out was cut off.
"Yaa!!……..n…"
He shook his head desperately to escape from the hard palm that covered his mouth, and Sugizo, looking gently at Ryuichi as he gripped at his wrist to try and release it, took a small bottle from his front pocket.
"……..u!!!!!!!…….uh……"
As the blue medicine flashed in front of his eyes, Ryuichi’s face became paler.
"………iya…….yada!"
The pain-filled gasps that slipped from between Sugizo’s fingers, changed into blocked screams.
As he stared at Ryuichi fixedly, Sugizo put the thin pointed glass lid to his lips, and slowly pulled it off.
"Drink it………?"
The strange alcohol-like smell quickly overflowed……….inviting Ryuichi’s dizziness.
"……….n……..n……"
He grabbed his chin with the hand that had been covering his mouth, and gradually strengthened the grip. He forced the mouth open painfully, and Ryuichi’s eyes filled with tears. His glaring expression was turning to a plea desperately seeking forgiveness.
"……..yada……..yame…..te……."
Replying to the pathetic pleading voice with a smile, he put the mouth of the bottle to Ryuichi’s lips.
"……..iya……….iyaa……….yurushi…..te……"
Pressing the opening of the bottle hard to Ryuichi’s trembling lips as he sobbed convulsively, as he tilted it to tip it all in at once………at that time.