Original Chinese version is by Faye and Trick. I do not own the original fiction whatsoever. Comments are welcome, and please pardon any mistakes/inaccuracies. Punctuations have been done according to the original...
Love You Only (1) L'Arc~en~Ciel short novel
Original: Faye and Trick
translator: hidoko Matsumoto
start!!!!!!
"tetchan... tetchan... I love you so much! I've always loved only you...."
"hyde! This is not a small matter! hyde, do you understand? I, too love ----- "
"Don't say anymore.... You already have kaori..."
"That. That is..."......
"Do you really love me....????"
"I think.... With the ability to bring you happiness... Is not me..... It's sakura....."
"But ....tetchan...I still love you most......"
"What about megumi? She really needs you!!!!!!" tetsu makes a determined effort in his heart... Saying through clenched teeth....
"That woman (Fierce glint in eyes).. Is only using me! She doesn't love me at all... Will go out with him~~it's only to forget techan you" tears shine at the corner of hyde's eyes..
"hyde...you...really don't mind the outside world's viewpoint?!?!don't mind the influence it will have on our carreer once we are together?!"
"As long as techan you don't mind....What do I have to worry about? As long as we love each other.. Surely everyone will support us..." hyde smiles, his face full of bliss.
"All right...Then...I'll tell you frankly ...Actually ...I've always treated Kaori like a sister... To suppress my love for you since long ago......" tetsu's right hand gently caresses hyde's face.
"Really??? I'm so happy...Ken. Yukki always told me..You love me..That time I still didn't believe....now hearing it from your own lips ...techan...This isn't a dream!?" A hand coveres Tetsu's hand which was on his face, the other on tetsu's waist ..lovingly gazes at the person he loves most deeply.
"hyde.....I will never escape again.... aishiteru....zutto........." Both hands lightly turn Hyde's face towards himself, and he presses his own lips against Hyde's.
hyde closes his eyes, accepting this kiss which he could only feel in dreams initially..his arm around tetsu's waist.....suddenly....kaori appears......
"you. You both.........."kaori stares at them unbelievingly.....tetsu jumps...hurriedly lets go of hyde.
"tetchan....what is this all about?! you and hyde?!?!??!" kaori feels angry and flustered at the same time...
hyde isn't pleased about tetsu's actions..Does he really care about other's view so much?
"No!! kaori there's nothing between us!!!" tetsu debates.
hyde's eyes widen, pulling on tetsu's sleeves. Wanting to meet with his eyes, wanting to ask him why...
He doesn't mind, does he? He only loves me, does he? But tetsu would not look at him throughout..from the beginning to the end, he was explaining....
"there isn't anything between us. Really!! kaori!"
hyde's heart goes cold ......tetsu's promise towards him, tetsu's confession of love towards him, just now, it all seems like a game, a lie. The stupidest thing is that..he actually believed!
"Un..Kaori..we were really only practising..don't be mistaken..because megumi isn't satisfied with my kiss..so...." hyde says without expression..
tetsu glances at hyde once..his heart seeming to quake..immediately he turns towards kaori, saying: "un...only practising...kaori...it wasn't anything" following that he walks towards kaori, giving her a warm hug.. hyde sees all these in his heart....
hyde turns and walks away......tears flowing down......why..techan could don't care like that?? he held kaori...then should I go and find megumi???...suddenly it rains...flowing down with hyde's tears.
hyde thinks...maybe...the words he said just now were only to make me happy....I, this idiot....what was I happy about.........I should stop my love towards tetsu.... ... ... .. ......
Part 2
his footsteps instead leads to sakura's house...
ding dong...
"hai!!! chotto matteyo!!!" hyde knows this is the voice which he is so familliar with...
when sakura haven't left the band ...hyde and sakura had uncounted memories ....following the time's flow ..hyde found that he had unwittingly felt a good feeling towards tetsu.....now...tetsu instead treated his own feelings like this ..upon remembrance of the scenes just now, tears fell like rain......
"hyde....???" sakura doesn't dare to believe his own eyes....
"........" hyde doesn't say anything..only crying all the while......he feels that he was so despicable......tetsu didn't want him..only then, he returns to find sakura....
"what happened??? hurry... come on it! Look at you, you're drenched" sakura couldn't cover his concern.. after all... towards hyde, he still........
sakura takes out two cups of hot coffee... "come..hyde...drink this first...will let your body feel warmer..."
hyde's tears have dried... he silently reaches out to take the coffee, still not speaking a single word...
watching hyde silently drink coffee..sakura suddenly can't help caressing hyde's face....hyde gazed at him....but in his heart was still only tetsu....
"why??" sakura asks....hyde lowers his head...tears carelessly falls. sakura holds hyde tightly...the feeling of heartache spreads....
"don't cry...I will feel painful for you......." hyde finds reliance... in sakura's embrace... feeling.....sakura is really gentle...
"I want to forget techan....." hyde says
sakura stares at hyde with a surprised expression... "why....?"
hyde only looks at sakura unfeelingly, expressionlessly says: "he cheated my feelings..."
sakura sees this in his heart making it hurt more.. thinking: "why is it that without me you have become this way?!"
"then..you now...can help me forget him???" hyde's large eyes gazes at sakura...
"I........" sakura's heart jerks....
silently, hyde tactlessly holds sakura tighter.....sakura feels the contours of hyde's body..couldn't help being moved....
sakura watches hyde's lovely seducing eyes...slowly... very familliarly presses his lips against hyde's red ones, and then kisses hyde's face... until his eyes..not stopping to let him take a breath...
hyde's face reddens unknowingly......this sort of thing..they were frequent last time..why is it only now that he feels embarrassed?
seeing hyde's reddened cheeks..sakura smiles..."Really want to eat you up.....I want to lick you around.." sakura says to hyde with seduction...
hyde puts his hand lightly onto sakura's chest. didn't know when, his lips moves towards sakura's neck, teasing..sliding against the contours...
the two hot bodies, dripping sweat merges with one another..this sweet night which hasn't been in a long time...sakura had never thought that this day will arrive...hyde jumping into his embrace...every night he only dreamed of hyde's silhouette..however he couldn't grasp it no matter how.... he kisses hyde's every inch of skin...all the touches which he is familliar with...
"hyde.....aishiteru....zutto" sakura, out of breath, confesses by hyde's ears...
hyde's heart stopped for a beat...(this...isn't this the promise which tetchan gave me?!)
"hyde....love me???" sakura asks...hyde doesn't answer... not knowing whether it's because he was too excited..or.....(please use your imagination)
following this sakura has an idea... "....still can't forget him"
"hyde....just this night.......I'll help you forget him..................." following this, he uses his lips to cover hyde's, ooxx........ (done the thing...|||)
Watching sakura's sleeping features~hyde feels that he had let him down.felt that he had let himself down more. he betrayed his own heart... hugs himself tightly. dumbly, askes himself.... (I....what was I doing just now?)
Part 3
hyde walks on the way home alone ....sunlight showers on his body ..should have felt warm...but contrary, he feels so cold.........
"today we have recording .........techan.....my form like this.....how can I see him?"
hyde reaches the recording studio...he sees tetsu lying on the sofa in deep sleep..as though he hasn't gone back home ...tetchan awakes in shock to the sound of hyde opening the door..
"ah...hyde...you...yesterday night didn't go home?" tetsu glances at the clothes on hyde which had been worn yesterday...
hyde nods, not saying anything..only concentrating on preparing for recording...
"hyde...where did you go yesterday?" tetsu asks caringly.
"sakura's home" hyde purposely.. anyway tetsu doesn't care..tetsu feels shocked..(then they.........???)
hyde looks at tetsu's reaction, pleased.. "want to know what we did yesterday???" hyde smiles seductively.
"are you revenging by doing this?!" tetsu suppresses the anger in his heart...
the corners of hyde's lips lift in a self-satisfied smile, using a taunting tone, says: "yeah..you?? weren't you having a good time with kaori the whole night yesterday?!"
tetsu seems to be unable to hear the bitterness in this phrase...he dashes to the front of hyde, pushing him unhurtingly towards the wall..right hand against the wall, left hand taking hold of hyde's face (equals to saying that hyde is in the middle of both of tetsu's hands...) ..both of his eyes stares into hyde's eyes straightly... crazily kisses hyde's lips...
hyde keeps thinking of pushing away tetsu. too bad he didn't have such great strength (although he learnt shaolin kungfu, he has already forgotten it more or less). he could only let tetsu's hands wander on his body..unknowingly...he falls intoxicated...
"hyde....."tetsu calls his name by his ear...suddenly in hyde's mind, kaori's face flashes. appears yesterday tetsu holding kaori's shoulders .and the scene of pushing him away......
he pushes tetsu with a great force"you don't touch me!!!!" hyde yells
"hyde......????"tetsu doesn't understand....(wasn't he very responsive just now? why now.......don't tell me....??)
"then tell you I don't feel anything towards kaori!!!!!"
"then why do you hold her yesterday??! hug her?!?!?!" hyde's eyes, filled with sadness, hatred, anger, stares straight at tetsu...
"that is..."when tetsu is about to explain, ken pushes open the door, walking in...
"kyaaaaa!!!(the specific sound which women make when being scared||||)"when ken walks in he jumped in shock....
tetsu immediately pushes hyde away..pretending that there was nothing, he takes out his bass and tunes..
"hehehe...tetchan...you hid hyde this little wife in secret!! not having enough at home you must come to the recording studio?!"ken half-jokingly says.but hyde and tetsu speaks simultaneously: "it is not so!!"
"it's just that my eyes don't feel well..find tetchan only to help me see what's the matter..." expressionlessly hyde finds an excuse to fill up with..tetsu only looks at him with eyes desiring of clarification...
"soga....just joking....e~~~~? yukki's not here?!" ken takes out his guitar and slowly tunes it...
hyde doesn't want to practise singing..anyway he doesn't have this habit....while waiting for yukki..he picks up his handphone..
"moshi moshi megumi desu~~~" a familiar voice travels in..but hyde now feels so fake..
"un~~ hyde desu....megumi chan....tonight have dinner together..." hyde purposely says it loudly....tetsu who is tuning hears it.. (hyde...you.....)
"un...okay...tonight 8:00...so it's like this...jane" hyde turns off his handphone..ken says, seeming to smile but not smiling..
"huhuhu....going out with honey for diner again?! so good nee..." actually megumi had broken up with hyde long ago..this date for dinner is just to discuss work...
"un...yeah...envious ne" hyde once again tryingly says some words which will stimulate tetsu to see his reactions.....this time, ken finds that tetsu's face has a strange expression...
"ah...everyone is here....gomen gomen!!" yukki pushes the door this time, entering..
"ja...let's start practising!!"
"wait...I want to make a phone call" tetsu requests....
"you can't stand others' sweetness?? want to find kaori...." ken makes a manner of helplessness...
"is it kaori?? tetsu desu..today are you free??un...eight...hai...ja" tetsu puts down the phone...looks towards hyde's direction..
hyde's face all turns green ...tetsu feels a sort of ectasy of revenge... (hoho~you know to do it~I won't know to do it? but hyde's angry manner is so cute....playing like this once in a while is not bad~~^^)
the corner of tetsu's lips can't help but lift..
"Saa! let us begin!"
"hai~hai~~~leader majesty~~|||" ken couldn't figure out this 2 people..purposely making each other angry....what does it mean!!
Part 4
"a...gomen...I'm late...." tetsu hurriedly takes off his hat and sunglasses..
"aiyo...letting me wait so long..." kaori pouts while complaining to tetsu...but....they do not seem to have discovered the hyde who's sitting at a corner, staring at them in shock..(how...how can it be... that coincidental...)
"un.....tetchan...how?? is there anything??" kaori asks, winking... on tetsu's face is a color of disaster... he doesn't want to lie anymore ...for hyde..he can sacrifice anything...
"kaori.....I think...we're not suitable........let us break up" tetsu says coldly.
"naze????where did I go wrong????you tell me.I will change" kaori holds tetsu's hand. but tetsu takes his hand away without any trace.smilingly answers..."you are a very good girl..but...whom I like...is a male..."
"then yesterday you and hyde are really...????" kaori's eyes widen.
"un! I love him....from the first time I saw him..even though he loved sakura at first..but I still couldn't let go of him.until now......" tetsu finally speaks out the truth..
kaori is still looking like she doesn't dare to believe... "tetchan....then...what about the commitment which I gave you?!" following that, tears flow down
"gomen....." tetsu can only keep saying sorry...when he is preparing to wipe kaori's tears away..kaori knocks his hand away..simultaneously picking up a glass of water from the table to splash it onto tetsu's face!!
"you don't touch me!!!!!from now on don't ever look me up again!!!!!!!" turning, she runs out of the shop.....the customers in the shop are all shocked by this scene...
"eh?! that person looks familliar...as if I've seen her somewhere before..."
"that woman just now looks so much like kaori mochida..." the people in the shop, after seeing this scene, have scattered discussions.
tetsu sits on the seat dumbly.but he doesn't feel the least bit of regret..he puts on his hat and sunglasses..just as he is about to leave, he turns to see hyde sitting in a corner...and megumi..he unhesitatingly walks towards hyde's table..
hyde doesn't know what tetsu had just said to kaori. but seeing tetsu having been splashed by water...
"hyde.hyde...iya~you don't even listen to me...." megumi uses a super-bimbotic voice to hyde..(hn! this woman is so annoying..we've already broken up ..still wants to seduce me??? seeing that slutty look makes me want to puke)hyde thought with a growing hatred.from the corner of his eyes, he happens to see tetsu walking towards himself.
suppressing the gross feeling in his stomach.covering
megumi's hands with his, he says, "sorry....to compensate.tonight..stay
over at my house okay?" using the the most teasing voice he can manage,
he asks.of course.it's only to anger tetsu..
megumi.........
suddenly a man appears to pull hyde from the seat..
"gomen...megumi...I'm borrowing hyde.." tetsu gives megumi a polite smile, following leaves the place holding hyde's hand....leaving a shocked megumi..........
hyde shakes away tetsu's hand.scolding loudly "what do you want?? pulling me out like this.don't say anything.I'm going back. megumi's waiting for me"
hyde turns to leave.tetsu holds hyde's hand.stopping him from leaving..
"I told kaori...."
hyde freezes for a moment ...smiling coldly, he says "explaining yesterday's things again?"
suddenly...tetsu stops his footsteps...turns towards hyde, saying: "no....I told her.....the person whom I love is you...."
hyde freezes...he smiles: "tetchan..when are you going to stop acting..?!"
"no!!!!!I'm saying the truth!!!I really love you!!! when sakura was with you...I could only love you silently... I know at that time you're most happy...."
"liar......" hyde says, unbelievingly.
"really!! I love you...since I first saw you I fell in love with you...but seeing you and sakura together was so happy..i could only look after you from behind.but sakura left.....when I knew you loved me too..I felt like everything in the world was alive..." tetsu says truthfully.
"you lie ...liar.....this can't be true..." hyde's eyes fill with tears...he can't see the tetsu in front clearly.but he knew tetsu is surely gazing at him with very gentle eyes......
hyde only feels warm arms around him...now he only thinks to declare his feelings in these warm arms...
"tetchan.......aishiteru........zutto"
tetchan lightly places a deep kiss onto hyde's forehead...
"hyde...I will not escape anymore.....for you...I am willing to sacrifice my soul...."
hyde shows his happiest smile...the smile which only belongs to tetsu......
(owari~~!!!!^o^)
Love You Only all parts finished