-part 1-
translator's notes: ^^; Ummmm.. .I know there's very, very fatal mistakes, grammatical, vocab, and even formatting. I fixed some, but I reckon there's still plenty more, so if you found any, feel free to email me... *shrug* (it used to be a hobby.) And um... *cough* I added the _nickname_ for Ooishi myself. It's not TETCHAN's doing, for your info.. .
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this one is Vol.1, I wrote it from the view of hyde..^^..
When did it start, I myself can't remember anymore, the memories of the sky is so blue, your smile is so warm and radiant... I can only remember on that day, you found me, and I found you...
The present me can be said to be happy, being able to be by the side of the person whom I have loved for so long, to play the music that I like, to be with such great companions, Tetsu, Ken, Yukihiro... As long as I am with them, I can go through every obstacle no matter how big it is... I am supposed to be happy, but, why is that empty sadness lingering there? ...help me, who can fill that hole in my heart?
Today's recording situation had been very bad, I had a disagreement with Tetsu. I had hoped that today he could stay back and hold a conversation with me, because even though now I am going out with Megubitch (sorry cant help it) , but Tetsu is still my best friend, he understands me the most... And I believe I understand him most, therefore I wanted to talk about my feelings recently. But recently he always avoided me whether there was a reason or not; after the recording he would say that he wanted to go to Kaori's side, normally it would be the same, when I called his home, he was either not there or he'd be either going out or bathing, otherwise he'd be busy about something... What the heck! ~Don't tell me that my 10 years of friendship with him is so unimportant compared to Kaori? During recording, he would be so cold, he'd not be giggling, or pinching my cheeks lightly, telling me "you are the cutest in this world".
The mutual understanding between the two of us have disappeared... Yukihiro and Kenchan must have noticed, Tetsu used to take care of me most, but right after he went out with kaori he had changed, is she _that_ important to Tetsu?? Actually Tetsu's feeling, I cannot understand, now I also want to see Megubitch everyday, want to be with her, to understand her more (blech), want to be warm to her, want to heal her wounds; maybe Tetsu has that same feeling towards Kaori.. .but...
The cold war between Tetsu has lasted for one week, Ken and Yukihiro has been very worried, I am waiting, waiting for Tetsu to come and apologize to me, last time when we had quarrelled he would apologise first, but why hasn't he come and said sorry?
"Hyde... Hyde san... HYDE!!" What? Is Tetsu calling me? He's finally talking to me!?
Ara... Yukichan... Ah, is there anything?" So it is Yukihiro... My words held a vast feeling of disappointment.
"You have been touching your own face... What's wrong with it? And... You and Tetsu can't go on like this forever, go and apologize to him..." What?? Me!? I then don't want! Why should I go this time? Is Yukihiro right? I was touching my own face?...
Will be continued...