-part 3-
On the way home, I unwound (opened... I can't think of the correct word, gomen...) the car window to let the cold wind blow into my face, un... so comfortable~~ The face which had been hot because of the alcohol felt more comfortable right after the caress of the breezem,... the gentle wind... So comfortable... It's like the way he carresses my face, I didn't think I really missed him this much.... Am I really like Ken and Yukihiro said?
Actually I also felt that way towards Tetsu?? I will be flustered if I can't see him... Thinking about his smile I will smile too, I miss him... I miss him till my heart aches... The heart which keeps thinking about of him can't stop already, reminiscising his presence (smell? ^^;), his everything... Just because he is by my side, I will feel secure~ I don't want to think of the scene of him with Kaori! Tetsu belongs to me... I don't want anyone else to share his warmth, I don't want to lose you, Tetsu... You are like my angel... .."Angel"?? Isn't it the song which Tetsu wrote?
search for it, I remember that this song has a insubstancielly sad melody... Found it! ~Let me try to understand you from a new beginning from this song! ~Let me see through your feelings... And look at my own... heart...
Angel
Embrace
The legendary love
Spread the wings of bliss
Fly towards the person whom I love
The strong me
Exists because of you
My wings
Fly because of you
But Lucifer
Fractured my wings
I can't stay by your side
You whom I love most, ah
I can't let you be happy
Can't become the embrace which lets you rest in peace
Love
Is an ending without beginning
I am an angel with broken wings
Are? The words become blurry, why is this so?? Reach out to touch it... It's wet, my face has a damp feeling... So it's tears. Tetsu has he been feeling pain because of me? He loves me most? I love him too... After looking at the lyrics, I can finally understand Tetsu's heart, his love, because... I now know what I feel for him.
Always have taken his warmth for granted... Tetsu is like the air, surrounding me gently, because I always owned it, Tetsu has always been my side,..I've been so used to it that I don't know how to treasure it...
When I finally lost him, I understand his importance... It's like a fish without water, can't live for a day...
Losing him is like losing a piece of myself, only with him am I complete, I love you so much... Aren't I dumb... Now, I finally sorted out my feelings, if i tell you now, will it be too late??...If I open my mouth and tell you that I love you now, will it be too late??...But I don't want to lose you!!! I don't want you to be with Kaori!! ...But what should I do?? What should I do??......Tetsu, where are you....