-part 4-
"Hyde, what is it? Did anything happen?? When I went home, I heard your message... I think the 'old place' is this? ...Un~~ How I miss this seaside.. . Haven't come for a long time!~Why do you suddenly ask me to come here? ..... .you.. .aren't with... .. Ooishi.. .. . together?" After that, Tetsu fell into silence, but it was obvious that he had ran all the way.. maybe he had ran to look for me right after hearing the message~ He too, thinks that this place is important?..
Also... It's very obvious, when he talks about Megubitch, he was very.. .hesitant... Does this represent that he cares about me very much?
But once I thought about how he didn't go home so late, how the mobile phone was not on, my happy feelings immediately got drowned by suspicion and jealousy. "Aren't you gonna be with Kaori?? You shouldn't leave her just to look for me! Isn't she your girlfriend? She's more important than me... ."
Ha... What a bitter voice... It's so obvious that it's jealousy,.. Please!! ..Tetsu, don't reply!!!... .I'm so scared... I don't want to face that cruel truth~!! I will break down in front of you!!
"No!!! You are most important, don't you understand???" What?? This is not the answer which I had expected, my eyes grew wide as I stared at Tetsu.. .. What did he just say??~~I.. .am most important??? Must have heard wrongly.. .My mind is very messed up.
Tetsu saw that I didn't respond, he ardently hugged me... Not like the embraces on stage... .............. .so straightforward, truthful... but it lets me feel a sort of strong and comforting emotion, this... .embrace which fills the emptiness in me. Not waiting for me to speak, Tetsu started.. . "Don't speak... Let me express my feelings with words... I and Kaori have talked it out, she asked me if I really loved her,.. I couldn't say the truth, because the person whom I love all along is you!!...Kaori is a special girl, she's like a sister to me... But I let her misunderstand without meaning to.. .I feel very sorry towards her, but I can't love her... .The past wounds were healed only because you were by my side, you're irreplacable to me~. Only you understand my everything, when I realized.. .I found that I had fallen in love with you!!~I couldn't get out of it~.. But to be limited to only 'good friends' this labelling, I can only silently look after you.. . And see you and Ooishi go out together... I can only wish you well.. .heh. ..who asked me to be your good friend?.." Tetsu laughed at himself.
But the arms which are around me grew in pressure, as if scared that I would run away, or disappear... Heh, Tetsu.. We're both the same... I didn't speak, but silently listened and enjoyed this sweet torture... .
"Angel this song was made for you,.. .once I think about you and ooishi I will feel agonized.. .I can't be the one to make you happy, my heart aches... So I wrote this song.. .I wanted to express my love for you with this song... But on that day of recording, you couldn't go on the correct beat, I thought you had realized the meaning of the lyrics and wouldn't accept my love... Therefore refused to sing.. .Because long ago, Yukihiro and Ken have found out about my feelings for you.. .They were very supportive towards me, gave me encouragement,.. .But what's most important to me is your feeling!!! ...I don't want to be looked down by you, to be hated by you, was scared that you'd leave me... So... I decided not to look for you this week, maybe it would lessen my feelings for you... .But I've decided... Even if you, Hyde, can't accept me, it's okay, you can pretend that this has never happened... . I wouldn't say that I love you, I will wish you and Ooishi all the best, I will still be the same old me..." I looked up to see Tetsu's smile, it was still very gentle... .But I couldn't feel any bit of warmth, it was not real at all, I knew that his heart was crying. ...
When Tetsu decided to let go of me, I held him tightly, I don't want him to leave me again!!!
Tetsu looked at me in surprise, tried to pull me away.. .but I wouldn't allow, I wouldn't let go again! I started singing Angel.. . For a moment Tetsu's movements stopped.. .But immediately he hugged me again, and smiled my most beloved smile at me.. .The smile which is so warm, which belongs to me only.
The wall had collapsed... .. Love.. .had entered to each others' heart, I whisper softly to Tetsu's ear.. ."You are my angel of bliss, without you, I will not be happy.. ..I love you.... ."
Both of us were engaged in a deep embrace... As if scared that each other would disappear with the fog.. . Didn't want to let go, and at the moment of dawn, we exchanged a kiss of promise.. . The first kiss which belonged to lovers.. .
Lifting my head to look at the sky, it's so blue.. . Just like Tetsu, gently enveloping me...
Finally... .. I found you... ... ..