Monday, December 06, 1999 3:36:36 PM

Xz0ner
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Notes: Nee, I've gotten sadistic recently, and my muse is telling me to write evil fics, so…. *cough* ^^; hido: Are you sure?! I don’t wanna get killed! Muse: Yes! Just get along with it! You love kicking Hyde around, dontcha! Hido: No I don't…….. Hmm… Yes I do. :P Muse: Great! Let's go and kick Hyde around!
Hahahaha, no seriously, it's becoz I once read this ficcy with Ken killing Hyde. Besides… Uh… I found it beautiful. I don’t dare to write Tetsu killing him with a screwdriver of course, it’s a bit scary. Of course I'm not mocking my currently favorite couple! Its meant to be beautiful, but I don’t know the results…. So tell me what you think…. Please…

Starring: Hyde and Tetsu

Warnings: Yaoi! And a bit violent…. ^^;
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The pentacle was laid down. Tetsu watched as the lights flickered, lighting up the dark dim walls. He dipped his finger into the red blood in the center… Ah, it felt so good. The red liquid seemed to hold a power, even just sitting there in the crystal glass.

No, it was not blood. Tetsu blinked again. He had forgotten that it was red wine which he had put there. He shook his head, trying to get his mind back.

The thunder sounded outside. Rain pattered against the window panes, Tetsu looked out and saw the storm drawing near, even though he was so safe in the shelter of the olden parish house. He loved the sky of the storm, it always seemed as if it was the end of the world.

Nee, what would happen if it was the end of the world…? He chuckled, the soft sounds of his breath echoing through the empty room. A face floated into his mind, that beautiful childishness enchanting him. Even if it was the end of the world, it won't matter….

The door creaked open, making him jump.

"Tet-chan…?" A deep childish voice.

"Oh! Haido!" He exclaimed, not sure of what to do. "What are you doing here….?"

"………I'm scared." The soft reply surprised him. Tetsu had always thought that Hyde was the guy who was made of iron. "……Am I disturbing you?"

"No," He replied immediately, and gestured for the boy to sit down beside him. Hyde's gown flowed as he walked towards the comfortable couch, and both of them looked out of the window for a little while, watching the rain.

"Tet-chan, what is in your mind?" Hyde asked, his large eyes looking up into Tetsu's saddened ones.

"……Nothing," Tetsu replied, as he reached for the glas. The wine bottle was tilted over in his carelessness. It fell and crashed to the floor, spilling the red wine everywhere. Hyde gasped, standing reaching out for a piece of cloth which sat nearby. "No, it's okay, Hyde. Don't clean it...... yet."

The thunder sounded again and the lightning flashed. The storming landscape was alluring, as Tetsu glanced at the boy who was sitting beside him, noticing his penetrating gaze.

"Wha…. What's wrong, Hyde?" Tetsu asked, looking down uncomfortably, to see that some of the wine had spilled on Hyde's white gown, making it seem as if Hyde was bleeding. He smiled to himself, if it was, it would have been so beautiful…..

"Tet-chan…. I have a problem recently." Hyde broke the silence, choosing his words carefully, as if he was revealing an important piece of information. "………….I'm in love with Sakura."

Pain. "Does he know?"

"No," Hyde whispered, looking back down at the ground, at the spilled wine. "He's been my friend since we were kids, and of course he's treating me like his brother."

Sadness. "Then tell him."

"He'd reject me."

A bit of anger. "You still have me…"

Hyde looked up, surprised, as Tetsu smiled sadly and reached out to hold the smaller body closer. He hugged him back, smiling. "I know."

"….You don't understand." Tetsu whispered, reaching out for the broken pieces on the floor. Revelation. "No…. You'd always belong to me. And you can have me if you want, but…."

"What are you saying?" Hyde forced a laugh, pushing Tetsu roughly away. His eyes widened, as he saw the piece of jagged glass in Tetsu's hand, as Tetsu held him tightly in one arm. As Tetsu held the glass, pushing it down into the pale flesh of Hyde's neck, dying it red, just as the wine had. Hyde cried out, struggling painfully, pushing the other man aside. His feet touched the broken pieces of glass which was lying on the floor, cutting it, but the agony was worse in the shoulder where he had been stabbed, and even worse in his heart. He ran away.

"Hyde!" Tetsu cried, chasing after him, the hand clutching the glass piece bleeding. He was wearing slippers, so he was able to catch up with his brother easily, and gripped him hard by the neck. The fireplace at the living room cackled like a deathly hell, as Hyde cried, struggling uselessly. "No, you don't understand how important you are to me, Hyde, how much I must have you….."

"No!"

"It's just a while. It won't be too painful, okay?" Tetsu muttered under his breath, soothingly, shoving the small boy to the ground. Pain engulfed his heart as he impaled the sharp glass into Hyde's tender flesh, in, out, in, out, in a trance…. The blood was spilling everywhere, just as the red wine had when the bottle was broken. "Hyde…"

The fearful screams were ignored, the pained voice never reached his inextricable mind. Pretty soon, he was done. Hyde lay there gasping in pain, his last fluttering breaths like a melody to Tetsu's ears. Tetsu picked him up, as if he was cleaning up shards of a broken mirror, and held him tight, feeling the pieces of glass embedded in Hyde's skin piercing through his own. Their blood mingled, and for once Tetsu felt his heart fill and brim to the top with tears and love, as he carried Hyde's hurt body and lay him down on the rose-padded table, in the middle of the pentacle.

"Tet…chan……" Hyde's weak voice floated into his head, stirring his consciousness back to reality. Tetsu saw the blood on his beloved, finally, like a truth forced on him, as he saw the blood in his hands, felt the pain which he felt as the weak insect tried to flap its wings one last time. He choked, "….Why did you… Do this…?"

"I…" Tetsu could not deny the fact that he was a sinner with hands dyed in blood. He would never have forgiven himself, yet it was a choice which he made. Setting the wheel of time on its path with his own bloodied hands. Now it's too late to reverse the turn of the wheel... "Because I love you."

Hyde's face only spoke of sadness and pity. "You… Don't know what is love…."

"…….NO! Shut up, you bitch!" The anger in his heart was awakened again, as he slapped Hyde's fragile face. The stinging on his hands reminded him that he was still alive, as he climbed onto the large table. Hyde cried in pain and fear; of all his wildest wishes right then, the greatest was to bring Tetsu back to his kind cheerful self. But it was useless, this was a side of Tetsu which he had awakened, the side which demanded to have the love given out by the loving side to be returned to the hateful side. Tetsu had always been taken advantaged of, because of his kindness, the hatred of the world let out on his cheerful self, leaving a trembling sobbing creature alone on the streets. Hyde had never remembered this being, perhaps Tetsu was tired of loving….

Ah, might as well….. Hyde smiled sadly, as he choked back a sob. Tetsu's hands were so endearing, even with a different intention, even with a different essence from his heart. The painful wounds were soon fading away, he felt Tetsu's lips over his, with all of the love put inside. Hyde wanted to laugh, to smirk and jeer at his brother. I never loved you, oniichan! I never did…

Maybe Tetsu had forgotten what was love. Maybe his definition of love was different. This Hyde tried to understand, as Tetsu's soft lips fluttered over Hyde's neck, as Tetsu felt the dying body underneath him drain away like rain water dripping through the shawls of a dead lady. The coldness of the body was so beautiful, as he continued kissing down, peeling away the white pieces of cloth, which were dyed red by blood, revealing pale bloody skin underneath. He could not even feel the pain as the pieces of glass pierced through his lip; he embraced the pain as if it had been him who was one walking wound. Perhaps, he was, he who had felt all the shame and hatred of the world……

And now, the only one whom he loved was unable to give love to him. He felt so exhausted, so empty in the bottom of his heart. He did not stop, there was no turning back…. The glass pierced through his tongue, the blood mingled with his saliva as he tasted its fresh coppery taste. It felt so good, so pure yet polluted…. Ah, there was no way to describe it. His eyes were wild with ecstasy, as Hyde moaned in both pain and pleasure with his fading soul, he could no longer see his Tetsu in the man who was violating him. He only saw an angry beast unleashed, taking its revenge on his own body…

Tetsu kissed down some more. His hands wandered around the body which was unmoving, as he tasted the last of its living moments. He unraveled the undergarments from beneath the white flowing skirt, threw them aside, revealing a hardness which was there despite the loss of blood. He smiled, admiring the beauty from the perverted sense of mindset, his own anticipation throbbing in impatience to taste his beloved.

He leaned down, his lips wrapping over the top of the hardness, his tongue flicking to do its work, to taste the last flesh it had so longed to taste. It was so great, too great, as he heard the pained and weak gasps of pleasures emerging from his dying brother. He laughed sadistically. You're mine, you will always be…Sakura can't have you…He can't, he can't!!

Hyde's tears flowed down more like a river now, and it was not because of the pleasure, but the sadness. ……Tet-chan………… The guy whom he had always respected and loved had done this to him. Even now he was not sure… But, he was his brother. To him, it would always be that way…… Pity and sadness filled his heart once again, as he thought of the past moments they had spent together. You lost, Tet-chan, you still don't know what is love…

Tetsu did not stop as the hardness died down; the liquid inside his mouth was an aftermath of what he had done. There was still more he had wanted to do, he wanted to be inside Hyde, he wanted his beloved to feel him probing inside….. He could not bear the thought of him being in any other person's hand.

My Hyde…

……I didn't know what to do with love, Tet-chan, but at least I understand love…… Please, regain your original self……… The wish was made, as he finally let go of his life. Tetsu did not notice, as Hyde's spirit slipped away from his body without any indication. The once-lively and glazed eyes were flooded over with a mist, now lifeless, as his tense body went limp. The blood continued flowing. Tetsu did not stop. He did not understand that it was too late yet.

He turned the lifeless body over, and lay down beside him, sliding himself in, feeling both of their bodies merge, as if he was bathing in blood with his lover. He felt Hyde's virginity give way to bleed, he didn't care so much. He had already hurt him too much……

As his own mind cleared, as the pleasure faded, he saw himself lying in reality with the dead body of his beloved. He knew what he had done, he knew that there was no way to rectify his sin. He did not intend to, because he had taken his revenge on the world for the love which he had given and the deceit which he had gotten in return.

He lay there for a moment, lay there as his body was still intertwined with his beloved, knowing that the moment would not last forever no matter how he wished it would. He was bathed in sin, the blood of his lover was the evidence. His hand slid around a piece of glass which had been left impaled through Hyde's body, pulling it out.

Ah, you don't understand, Hyde…… You're still mine…Let's just blame Venus for being blinded. Goodbye, hateful world.
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~Owari~

11:52:42 PM Friday, December 10, 1999

Author's notes: Yay! I finished it! ^__^; Uh… Comments anyone? Shit, my dad wants me to sleep. I hope it turns out well. Jya ne! ^^' Please, please email me your comments!!

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