Ghost

the foul air disperses evenly
of that radioactive time
even the night, which has been pure once
is tainted this moment as I step from the forest... ..

you smile...
you smile...
I miss 
that radiant gesture

the grasses sway in harmony
the lights of your window
it flows into my heart
through the pale canopy of the curtains

that white cat which sits by the usual window
its' piercing gaze stares evenly at me
everything is as my memory 
yet nothing recognizes me

you smile.. .
you smile.. .
I thought
your smile fades.. .

"Welcome back"

that smiling face has been frozen 
even though it too has been corroded by time
the faded photographs close in on themselves
I remember, the sight of my hands dripping blood... 

"How has work been?"

in that moment, I almost melted
in that moment, I wished time could freeze
in that moment, I saw everything I wanted
in that moment, everything shattered.. ..

"Oh, the usual. Suits and ties, allocations and iron clasps, white rooms and claustrophobia....... ...."

my heart. ..
my heart... .
I wonder
where do hearts go when they die?

-hidoko matsumoto
Jul 11 2000

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