The elegant longing for eternal silence

For the silence which will never come

Within my heart
 
 

She kept it shouting,

"Why am I what I am not?"
 
 

Love kept me captive

As I had given up struggling

Against the strong bonds she weaved
 
 

She taught me love

In my loveless heart

Where the lake of my heart freezes

And I hold on to the blade of ice
 
 

It was all fate that made me hold on

I would have gone mad years ago
 
 

I can’t blame her,

Though she made me a prisoner

If not for the sins I’ve commited,

I would have let myself go.
 
 

The past was a gone dream

She made it die

I don’t know

Whether to wish her an early death or what...
 
 

Though my heart cries for the free life I led,

I know, she made it better

I would still be craving bloodshed if not for her love.
 
 

The peace have not reached me,

It never will;

Though a shadow had calmed it down

The cries have softened

To be replaced by songs.
 
 

The shadow is my precious gem

singing, as dreams whispers

Nightmares have not ended;

Nor would they continue.
 
 

Shadow tells me the sorrow

Though it would take his life to admit

He would have said so for hate.

The chapters which I’ve painted black

Changes into brightness as the epilogue ends the story
 
 

To me, life would continue

As a better, new story

No longer ridden with death and sins

No longer screaming for an inner self to be heard

She had given me a living purpose,

And the Shadow gave me inner peace.
 
 

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***Hidoko***

Aa I wrote this long loooong ago! 11 yrs ol… I can't b bothered to write a poem like this now… [laughs] tell me what you think!

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