I'm absolutely tired now, so... I'm bound to make some mistakes. I can feel it in the air.
 

a laughter echoed, so clearly, then it got more faded, as if its owner was running away from him.

wanting to catch up, the raven-haired's feet moved on their own accord, and he found himself running desperately, in a mist of white and gray and all monochrome. he tried to yell, but his voice only faded as the laughter did. he tried to reach out, but his fingers grasped nothing but coldness in front of him......

and, not knowing when, he stood in front of the sea. It's silent waves were peaceful, gently washing the white sands with its caresses. he found himself walking towards it, now having calmed down, and the warm waves sifted through his toes, making him laugh out loud....

there were times when he wanted to merge with the sea, and be one with it, for it was the only place where he felt so whole, as if it was his virgin Mother, and he was a simple little child.

he remembered a beautiful redhead, whose laughter charmed him with every tinkle.

Gradually, he seperated from the sea, to live on the land, with the redhead. they'd watch the stars together, and they'd hold each other tightly as they fall asleep under the blessings of those thousand stars.

It had been a starry night, as well... still, someone threw open the door, and yelled. People rushed in...

turning the scene into a mess of confusion.

"It's wrong to love?!"

he remembered the redhead's tears as he was being pulled away, into a dark prison.

"You love a man. You should stop these sinful thoughts. It's against nature, it's against purity!"

"I don't care if I love a man! He's the only one I want!"

a glass ball fell to the wooden floor with a loud thud, and it cracked with a splitting sound.

"....the fishing harvest isn't good this year, we need to send a sacrifice to the sea... and the God of the sea have told me, who is the one."

people stared at him as he was lead away. Why hadn't he shed a tear?

"Do you think... When people die, they'll become stars to watch over us?"

"...Yes, I think they do."

....those scenes drifted away, until he was running, running...

from the sea.

he drowned again and again, repeatedly, in different forms, in different lifestyles....

but he always drowned......

and he swore, as he drowned, he could hear a vaguely muffled laughter.

***

The mist was white, for the redhead. It was gray and worn out, and he couldn't see anything, as if it hadn't been meant for him to know at all.
Or maybe it was something which was missing.

His large, amber eyes shone with a sheen of fear.

"....dare... dare ga iru?"

A youth was running away from him. He could see that black hair flowing along with the wind, as he ran and ran, as if afraid of something.... ..

He heard the same voice which called him, again and again.

"Ya...yamete...."

He chased that person, reaching out as if he knew it was calling for him, as if it was something which he was born for.....

something...

"....ya....yamete....te....te...."

The voice seemed to echo in his head, and then the vision blurred, until he couldn't see a single thing.

The sea.

The wide, endless sea.

The youth was running away from it.

...as if it was ready to engulf him any moment......

It faded, and he saw, something familliar.... the scene had changed, into the night sky. he saw, two people lying side by side, holding each other as if they were one together....

one of them had red long hair. the other, black, raven hair.... it was that youth.. him and that youth.

"Do you believe... that stars are your loved ones who died to watch after you?"

"...yes... I believe."

-- the scene shattered, and then he found his tears....

"Is... is that me....?" He asked.

But everything melted, even the night sky... and then he turned, to see himself running away, from a red mob... and thrown into a black room, with bars on the window.

He was crying.

He reached out, to touch himself, but his hand only passed through-- as if there was nothing, nothing at all.

"You love a man. Your sin is deep."

"We must curse you, for your sin is deep. Your beloved has already paid for the price......"

"I don't care if it's my sin....I don't care if I can't grasp heaven." /If we meet again.../

/why.... can I hear his thoughts... he's really me....!/

/If we meet again.... I don't care if I'm going to hell..../

"Then... You'll be reborn, to forget your memories. and, to die."

kono tsumi no te ga....

tengoku wo....

sawaranai.................!

/shinde mo ii....../

Teardrops beaded down his cheeks, and he felt it caressing him like that sadness.

/he's calling for me... to save him......../

/How could I have forgotten...!?/

***

"i...iya......!"

".......hyde.........hyde....!"

Both boys blinked at each other, as soon as they heard each other's outburst.

/after so long...we've finally met again......../

Tetsu burst into tears, and Hyde only watched with a confused expression on his face. But.....

that fear which engulfed him like the sea didn't really seem to matter, as he watched those heaving shoulders. In resolution, his fingers wrapped around Tetsu's frail shoulders, and gazed at him in the eye... .

It seemed that the redhead had taken care of him while he was having a fever.

He wasn't sure... but the dream had been long, and dark, and bad....
evil............
maybe, so much horror, and so much sadness too.....

suddenly, the redhead seemed so familiar.
although the raven-haired man couldn't place his finger on what..........

and why was he crying like that?
 

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